alright. I screwed myself over in this situation. I'm an idiot. BUt is it really a big deal? I don't think so. Before you tell me that it was a stupid thing to do and that I could have prevented it or tried harder, ask yourself why I did it. What was my motivation? Why am I freaking out over doors being cracked open? Why did I lash out and scream at you earlier today? Why wasn't I having fun with the people I know today? Why have I been acting so insane lately?
Why would I have wanted to prevented this?
Hm. Am I acting like you? It's not on purpose. I'm really struggling here. I need help. I can't find it from this place.
Some say screwed...I don't care any more.
-Kevin