Right now I feel horrible.
I admit, yes, it is partly because of you.
Additionally, though, I exhasted myself today so I'm just rather moody.
I haven't eaten much, either.
I almost fell out of Karls truck when I got to his house. I opened the door and kind of stumbled...
I need some rest. I overwork myself yet I never feel productive.
I'm really not sure what I'm wanting to say here right now.
I want things to work out and I'm willing to work on it. I have my faults too... Yes. I have many faults...
Usually I don't talk about them.
Usually I'm not aware of them.
I am depresed and I'm to blame, so don't take it personally. I hate sinking into this. It's the sleep deprevation and tiring day that sets me up for it. After that, the slightest thing can turn me down even if I know it's stupid. Then all of my mind is a dark cloud and I gasp for air trying to get out of it. I want to sleep because I know the feeling is only temporary.
There is so much. I want to write more. I have to go.
-Kevin