Hey... look at me! I'm at home!
I took the bus to the train, the train to another bus, then the bus to San Jose... where I was picked up and taken to my grandparents house.
I stayed there a few days filled with a confusion of indecision and then drove my grampa to my house.
So... I'm home. This place sucks so much.
I try to get away and I get stuck back here. This is the LAST place I want to be right now!
My life has been set to the status of 'pending'
Damnit.
I'm losing the battle. I'm losing my grip. Before long my mother will be the empress of the world and I'll be hinding under a rock in the dark, crying.
It's becoming obvious that the stress is getting to me. I'm unable to sleep. (1am right now) I can't bear to deal with large issues. I spend a large portion of my time trying to avoid anything that brings the slightest negative output to me. The little things are getting to me more and more. It's like I'm in a shrinking box.
I'll leave before long, though. You'll see. Everyone will see. I'm not going to put up with this.
-Kevin