Am I reaching the maximum possible level of desensitization?
I've changed so much, but it feels like I've only grown
more ... dead.
I'm not phased anymore. Before i was passionate about my entries on my blog. Now I'm without inspiration. Things that should affect me don't.
Imagine a death right in front of you. how would you react?
Sometimes i feel like I'd just stand there. Maybes stare off past the drama... past reality... into numbness...
How do I revive my spirit? my motivation? my passion for everything?
My mind is growing inert and I do not know how to combat it. Sometimes I don't know how to care anymore. It's almost an invoulentary apathy.
It makes me feel terrible, but I don't know how to feel that emotion anymore. All senses are numb. I want help... expressing myself... living... being human again...
Posted by Audiophile at November 9, 2005 02:24 AM