February 26, 2004
The mind
The irony
The agony
The hilarity
The omnity
I want to be free
I want to see
I wish to feel glee
I wish to meet she
The remains
The thoughts
The others
The shots
Only a few
of the many in my shoe
as it walks endlessly about in it's circle
-Kevin
The lightpost watching over
The rubble has finally settled
the pain is over
A man now pours water from his kettle
and drinks and dines with his lover
It happenned all so fast and slow
I couldn't grasp the edge
I slipped and fell into the glow
of darkness beneath a hedge
Now I wake to wonder if I slept
If I slept, what dreams were dreamt
I feel that something I could have kept
drifted away, yet upon return shall dispense
Dispense, dispense, dispense it will
I put my courage in it
the situation is not yet ill
and all the scattered peices fit
In the puzzle atop a grassy hill
you and I shall apear...bit by bit...
-Kevin
February 22, 2004
Blinking.
Blinking is like lubricating your eyes!! Neat! 
-Kevin (1:51am)
February 20, 2004
Some other day.
I really do wish the world were flat.
I could build a ship
and sail to the unknown
and battle giant sea serpants
...sail to the edge...
...and further...
...
February 19, 2004
Sleep.
I haven't gotten the sleep I need the last few days, so, logically, when the time comes that I know I can sleep in a little extra in the morning, I stay up later...
-Kevin
February 17, 2004
Paint it.
Paint the wall!
change the colors
streaks of blue
violet
turquiose
red
orange
brown
grey
white
yellow
creativity
use a brush
use a spoon
use your hand
use someone elses hand
use your head
and the phone
and a bicycle
while you're at it
Paint it!
Accent it!
Change it!
Transform it into something new
add a window
and climb through it
into the world you have made
Enjoy it.
-Kevin
again
...and I screwed up again...
I knew what it was
I knew how to do it
I knew how I would fail
and I did
Time passed
I saw it coming
I looked it in the eye
I saw how to stop it
but I didn't
-Kevin
More Rain
I want to go walk in the rain
to an unknown destination
I want to go lay in a puddle
and watch the droplets
fall into my face
I don't want to be here
yet I don't want to be there
the rain is
a comfort
a distraction
from the immediate
-Kevin
February 16, 2004
Swinging
At my previous house here in Grass Valley, there was a swing. The swing was huge, suspeded between two tall oak trees. You could lose yourself in thought while flying through the air, or think of nothing but the air racing past you as you left the ground. I miss that swing. I wish I had it right now.
-Kevin
February 11, 2004
You have a choice.
Don't tell me that you "have to do it" when you have other options.
-The ever-so-frustrated Kevin
February 09, 2004
I can't focus
I feel like a magnifying glass without it's lens.
-Kevin
February 08, 2004
Here is an interesting list
acceptance, accord, acquiescence, affirmation, affirmative, affirmative attitude, affirmative voice, affirmativeness, agreed, agreement, amen, approbation, approval, assent, Australian ballot, ballot, blessing, canvass, canvassing, casting vote, compliance, con, connivance, consent, counting heads, cumulative voting, deciding vote, division, eagerness, endorsement, enfranchisement, fagot vote, franchise, graveyard vote, hand vote, Hare system, interest, list system, nay, no, nod, nod of assent, nontransferable vote, OK, okay, permission, plebiscite, plebiscitum, plumper, plural vote, poll, polling, preferential voting, pro, promptitude, promptness, proportional representation, proxy, ratification, readiness, record vote, referendum, representation, right to vote, rising vote, sanction, say, secret ballot, show of hands, side, single vote, snap vote, straw vote, submission, suffrage, the affirmative, the negative, thumbs-up, transferable vote, ungrudgingness, unloathness, unreluctance, viva voce, voice, voice vote, vote, voting, voting right, willingness, write-in, write-in vote, yea, yeas and nays, yea-saying, yep, yes
-Kevin
February 07, 2004
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With all due respect and thanks to my friends and people such as Karl and Jason, I hate being around them so much. Not because I don't like them, but because I have to/end up relying on them so much for rides and getting places.
Sometimes I want to go somewhere without them, but since they're my ride, they have to tag along. (although I suppose it would be more like I'm tagging along with them to where they're going.)
I don't like having to wait on someone when I'm ready to leave, but they'renot, and they're my ride.
I don't like it when I have to leave because my ride is leaving.
I don't like having the car, but not being able to legally drive it.
I'd just walk, but it's too far, cold, stormy, and dark most of the time.
I can't get there on my own despite my motivation, and therefore I have to stop and ask for assistance. It relates to so many things in so many ways. It is so frustrating.
-Kevin
Pictures
Some pictures...
A bad night pic of the X-1 (my car)
The X-1 in the garage
The GTI in the garage
Jason working on the Maverick
It's sideways, oh well...
Take One
Take Two
-Kevin