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Unified theory?

Well, sort of. I'm working on it. I have regular physics and relativity, I think, but electromagnetism and quantum physics are areas I'm not sure about.

Where to begin?

It seems to me, that everything moves at the same speed, just on a different scale of time. This does not mean that if you are moving 10 miles per hour, and you accelerate to 20 miles per hour, you will be thinking twice as slow as you originally were... This is because you are on a moving planet, in a moving solar system. Your actual speed is not doubling unless you move twice as fast as you are moving relative to the ether (I'm using this as an absolute static field by which all movement is judged.)

The scale of time and movement is as follows.
No Motion..............................................................Speed of light
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........................|<-- assume that you are here
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Fast or Instantaneous Time...............................Slow or Static Time
(everything occurs quickly)

If you were in a space-craft traveling near the speed of light, for a typical example, your twin on earth would age faster. For you, everything on board the ship would look the same, seconds would click away on your watch the same, for instance.

However, this is because your brain is on the same scale of time as your surroundings, and thusly you perceive it as you normally would.

But why does speed determine time? This means that time is a product of all matter, yes? Sort of.

All matter has gravity. But the further you get away from gravity, the faster time becomes. I put two and two together, and I realized that gravity is simply a lack of time. The ether, being static, being the force that light travels relative to, represents space/time; Specifically fast time (were you to exist in the ether, all the movement in the universe around you would stop, and stay still till the day you died, but somebody could observe your life in the blink of an eye.).
Then when matter exists in the ether, it can only exist with condensed time, or slow time. And this relationship between matter and time is gravity.

It seems to me that gravity is not a force traveling inward, but emitting outward. In fact, it is both emitted outward from matter and pushed in to matter. Outward from matter, there is a gradient where slow time becomes fast time, and likewise around matter, fast time becomes slow time. Gravity is the relationship between extended (fast) and condensed (slow) time. This relationship is established at a certain speed, which we know as the speed of light. This speed is completely arbitrary because this will function the same way whether it is in reality fast or slow, because all other movement is based around it, and it will be perceived the same way to us every time: however fast light travels.

So why does such gravity pull matter toward it? Consider an object in a gravitational field. The further end will be existing in time that is faster than the opposite end. We can think of this as propulsion, in a sense. The object will seek to even out the scale and consequentially move, (toward the center of this field. When we consider the orbit of an object that is moving, our example makes more sense. If you have a car with four wheels, and two of those wheels on the same side of the car slow down, the vehicle will spin in circles.

But this shows that the car has inertia. What is inertia? Like I said, the relationship between fast and slow time is determined at the same speed that light travels. The nature of light, is such that it cannot go any faster than it already is going, so if you had a laser pointer going near the speed of light, and you turned it on, the beams would not escape too quickly from it, and they would be condensed. But it doesn't have to be going near the speed of light for the beam to be slightly condensed in relation to a static pointer. Any speed will do.

So, all matter projects this absence of time, however large or small it may be, and when it moves it will catch up, very slightly to its own field, which is then compressed in the direction of travel and extended in the opposite. Thus, it will keep moving at a constant speed.

It makes sense that as this field is condensed, time will go slower for that object.

One final question: If there is a planet moving at high speeds, how can a moon orbit circularly around it?
Easy. When an object moves, it has a head and a tail, but the moon has the same head and tail as the planet, they both have the same basic speed, plus more for the orbiting moon. The head of the moon will meet the tail of the planet on the orbiting path, and the tail of the moon will meet the head of the planet. Similarly, they will both be pulled around the sun. It all cancels out to make a normal orbital path.

Spam

As all my nonexistent readers have noticed, this blog has been spammed with over 200 messages. I got tried of deleting them after 50.

Well, they are adult-rated, most of them. Just know that I do not support them, I do not get paid for them, they're just there.

Hey, maybe someone horny is browsing my blog from google right now. Can't be such a bad deal.

Are there people who actually buy in to spam, thinking "Oh boy, links to click on the internet! It's on the internet so it must all be legit and hip. 100%". I spam god, he's pretty gullible.

Sometimes he's like, "Greg, are you being sinful...?" and I'm all "No, God. I found this dead hooker. Seriously. I think it was that guy." And that guy totally gets struck by lightning, because god loves hookers. "Thanks, God. Tell Jesus... hey..."

What will the history textbooks say...

Will they refer to our generation, and those before it, as the generation that couldn't agree? The generation that provoked violence against itself?

Will our current policy seem silly? What will it take to realize that our inflexibility and disagreements are pointless? Global war over a single issue, forcing us to conserve and protect?

Just as we see black and white photos of WWI and II today, we will see satellite photos of what is to be. We will not learn why it happened in the sense of issues, but in the sense of principles.

Author unknown. I think it was from T3.

Let me pimp your ride off of you.

Why buy a car?

Why buy a car when you can just dress up like xzibit and go knocking on people's doors?

"Oh my god it's MTV! AHHH!!! OMG!"

"uh, yep. I'm MTV, I'm here to uh, pimp your ride. For reals."

Seriously, these people would throw their car keys at you. Yeah, sure most of these cars are junk, but you could get some good out of it. Say, a week later they show up at "the shop"...

*tarp is thrown off the car* OHMY ...God... uhhhh?
"The first thing you'll probably notice is that tires, because when you're car fist came into our shop... it had tires. Well, we took those off, and what we did here was we took your car and put it up on cinderblocks."
"Now look inside for a moment, see that hole in the dashboard? That's where your radio used to be. My man jimmy, he sold it for 35 dollars"
"Reach in there and pop the hood for a minute, and walk around to the front. This is where the engine used to be, and from what we could see during our joyride it was a piece of work. So we sold that to a chop shop in the city."
"Next thing you'll notice is that we took the jaws of life to the outer paneling of your car.We did that to strip out all the copper wiring"
"But that's not all, wait till you see what we did to your trunk. Just stick your hand in here for a minute." "Ew, what... what is that?"
"A dead hooker with your prints on it." "HEY! THAT'S N-"
"Chill out, romeo... We have a gift for you." "A gift?"
"Yeah, get on your knees."

And then I'd introduce you to the back of my hand and we'd all say in unison "You got PIMP'D!" and then we'd record you saying to the camera, behind the wheel (if there is one) of your car, "thanks mtv for pimping my ride..."

Yeah.

summary

Throughout my childhood, nobody told me whether or not there was a god. I saw people praying, I heard the word a lot, so I decided that a vague belief in god couldn't hurt "Just in case."

I didn't really know what to do. I also knew that inanimate objects weren't alive, but I didn't always feel comfortable about "hurting" my toys. Every so often I would draw a cross with my hand across my shoulders and down my chest out of view. I would smile when I approached a church, and think healthy thoughts near it, and occasionally pray that my baseball game would get rained out.

I knew that the bible was wrong. I believed in god, but not Noah's arc. Not even a child could believe such stories.

Slowly, I began realizing that god wasn't doing anything for me. Everything good that happened in my life was my own doing, but everything bad, just seemed unfair. Knowing that I was causing the good, I began blaming the bad on god. I didn't know what I had ever done to him, yet bad things were happening to me. I became agnostic; I didn't care whether he existed or not, If I lived a good life I shouldn't have to worry about getting into heaven, if it exists. I figured I could argue about it if that were the case.
This was my belief for many years.

It was around 7th grade that I finally asked an important question about my beliefs. "Why would god want us to believe in him?" I figured that if life really were a test, as religion makes it out to be, of morality... It shouldn't be influenced by the question of god, or the prospect of heaven and hell. I figured that god would want people to do good on their own accord, not in the hopes of pleasing anyone. One should be happy about doing good deeds for simply doing them. Only then would the test be accurate.

I then knew that the traditional view of god; all organized religion, was wrong. Not only did god not tell anyone to believe in him, but he wouldn't want people to. From there I came to the conclusion that if leading this life is what god wants us to do, then I should do it for the same reasons that god would want me to do it and call them my own reasons.

I went through middle school wondering about it. If god doesn't want me to believe in him, then I should be able to prove that he doesn't exist. If I can prove, for a fact, that he doesn't exist... then the first part of the question is irrelevant, and the fact stands that God simply doesn't exist.

The first year of high school I continued asking questions, I couldn't help it anymore. These were the questions that I wanted to know the answer to before I died. Because I determined that life is mortal; when you die, your brain dies with you, so you cannot think about being dead, let alone miss being alive. I figured that incorporating the definition of being alive into being dead didn't make any sense because they are opposites.

Since I only am able to think for as long as I'm alive, I want to know why I'm alive in the first place. I could go my entire life not concerning myself with it, but nothing I ever answered would be as important.

My sophomore year I came up with ideas about how matter could exist without the presence of god. I figured that on the smallest scale, matter is no more than energy, or something like it. My exact belief was that it was made of packages of dimensions. In that way, matter would be made out of the instructions of its very existence. At the same time, I decided that the big bang would be able to work, simply because of the nature of nonexistence- There is no time, space, or force, to say what can or cannot happen. And so existence is born, at the beginning of time (there being none before), simply because existence could and must come to be. And when you think that it's only made up of the rules that define it's very existence, it seems plausible.

This, for me, was a turning point. I had, for the first time, a view of the universe without god that made sense, correct or not. In any case it made more sense than god, so I became a very strict atheist.

It was my junior year that I started dedicating my free time to the subject. I came up with the hypothesis that all things, to exist, need to exist relative to something. Life can only be defined if it's next to a rock or something lifeless, movement can only be defined if it's next to something static, and in the same sense, the properties of existence can only be defined in contrast to their opposite. So time cannot be infinite; it must have a beginning and an end. But then again, existence can't be finite, so it must repeat. I decided that it repeated in the same way as before, and that it always has. We've been here before.

Today, when I look at the debate, I like to come up with the best theories I can to support atheism, and theism. I create my own version of god, so I can disprove him and know for an absolute fact that he doesn't exist. For example, disproving the bible will get you no closer to disproving god, because christianity is a complete fallacy, and does not speak for god if he exists.

Think of it like comparing art. Imagine if you will, that art is something completely new to you. There are, perhaps, two paintings in existence. A picture's quality is only defined if it's placed next to, and compared to, another picture. Only then can it become clear which picture is good, and which picture is bad. If you have one picture, you can't really know if it's good or bad, but you have no reason to believe that it's a bad picture, because it is the picture you know. If I have two pictures, and I paint each as best as I can, I can tell which style is the most appealing.

So if god existed, what would my view of him be? God would, in all his power, and we can prove this through observation, not need to place man on the earth, or any life for that matter, himself. He could have the power to make the universe with the big bang, and know that it would turn out the way it would, and have life develop on its own through natural selection. If he had to create the universe, and place life on a single planet, he wouldn't be omniscient or omnipotent.

Some people just need to get their facts straight- this is the only way he could exist:?Not in man's image. He's god. God could only be perfect. He wouldn't need a nose (what the hell does he need to breathe anyway? can't he make air inside his lungs if he really needed it? He does not need eyes (being all-seeing, these wouldn't do the trick) does not need a brain, he doesn't need a body, or any physical form whatsoever. By definition, god created the rules of survival, of physics, of everything, if he existed. So he shouldn't be bound by them, or made up of his own creations, or he would be his own little paradox. Anything else, and you would have to ask who designed the designer.

Also, I refer to god as he. This is wrong, god is an it. But that's hard to work with, so I'm sticking to he. Why is god it? Because it has no need to reproduce, especially not in a way that benefits evolution and nothing more. He would reproduce through mitosis if it were that he couldn't create a duplicate by thinking about doing so.

And figuring he is this perfect god, why then, would we need to talk to him? In god's infinite wisdom and knowledge, wouldn't he know what you want already, and have known since the beginning of time what you would eventually want? So what good does talking do? And in his infinite wisdom, wouldn't making a suggestion of any sort be an insult to him? As if you're smarter than god?And what if, by chance, you pray for something that god already intended to happen, and you say to yourself, "hey, it worked!" Wouldn't this also be an insult, because you're assuming that it was your own idea and god wouldn't have done it without you?
isn't all praying a waste of the precious time god has given you?

God would not have a heaven and hell. Especially not for an eternity. Anyone would prefer death to an eternity of anything, including bliss. And why would god keep us? He has plenty of us, and if he runs out he can make us again. He would have no need for our company, being god. It would be a completely useless arrangement for him- humans would be the only ones impressed.
Life is unfair sometimes. God would have planned everything the way that it must in order to work, ultimately. He would not sidestep in order to make every life perfect, and then why would he bother caring about what it took to get there? God doesn't have morals. No need for them, they would slow him down if he felt pain for all the terrible things that happened here. Morals are evolved as survival traits, and god's survival is guaranteed. Feeling pain would be a flaw, and that god couldn't work.

God doesn't love. People say he does, but then they also admit that God can deal good and bad, regardless of of whether or not you are bad yourself, so how does love even factor into it? No hate, no love.

Is it possible to be all-knowing? It seems to me that knowledge comes from observation, and if there was a god, and there was nothing to gift god with knowledge, and nothing around to observe... Where did he find knowledge enough to create the universe? He can't seek to find something if he doesn't know what he's missing.

In fact, what are the attributes of god, and are any of them possible? He is all knowing, all powerful, and immortal. We've put omniscience to rest, but how about omnipotency? By what method would a god create existence from nothing? How would god have gotten this power?

Now what about immortality? It's impossible for anything to exist forever, that means it was never created to begin with. It shouldn't exist.

Any trillion year span to god would be so short-lived that he might not even notice it. Eternity is something god would not want to be omniscient to experience, and he would not want to be omnipotent so there are absolutely no challenges in existing for such a time.

If there is a god, he is nothing more than time. He exists, leads the universe from beginning to each, not capable of thinking, just existing in the way he must, and then coming back again for the next round.

The universe, by definition, is all powerful. It is itself, everything within it can be said to be a part of it, so there is nothing to test against its might. All-knowing has been proven to be a challenge life is capable of. The universe, and life (through generations) can be immortal. Especially the universe, time being directly related to it and all. All the attributes of god, without god, and with proof. This is atheism.

So religion, to me (even intelligent design), is an attempt to project the divine qualities of existence onto an imaginary friend.

Besides, how does it make sense to have a designer to explain the universe, if by definition the designer would have to be more, not equally, perfect than his creation? When you design something, you have proven yourself to be better than your creation simply because you were able to create it. So the universe then, is not as great as its designer would be.

How can we explain the fact that we seem to naturally believe and trust in a higher power? I think that yes, we do have something in us that seeks a higher power, but I think that it is meant to allow us to be governed by eachother, not by god. So that we can have the idea to set up the early forms of government, for better survival.

We know that this occurs in nature, with bees, ants, and alpha males. We inherited this trait just like all such life. But humans, gifted with the ability to imagine, sought something beyond.
I don't know why we comfort ourselves in the idea that there is somebody out there, who is the smartest being in existence, who knows what we're thinking. It's like the people who wear tinfoil hats to keep the aliens out of their head. There are others who like aliens.
As an atheist I enjoy my privacy. I know that my personal thoughts will die with me, and my thoughts can only be known to me.
There are a lot of people I can think of that I don't want to judge my mind, least of all God. The same way that I could tell a vegetable anything, I think I might make a tinfoil hat to ward off god. So the beliefs aren't very different between the alien and god. But one of them is considered crazy, and that's the one who's idea is more realistic.
Do we not trust in government? Is this not our queen bee? It's an inherited trust, as I've shown, and I'll show it further.
Since we are speaking of our relationship to animals, we must understand how our minds our different. We must understand why we can think, but animals seem dumb. In the evolution of a mind, first there is the regulation of the systems it controls obviously, and next is basic survival. What this means is the evolution of traits that, by natural selection, help govern the survival behavior of a community in various circumstances. Just as finches will adapt for survival physically, they will also mentally develop rules of survival. I consider these to be unconscious traits, or rather limited consciousness. In that everything works, but it is very controlled, much like hypnosis. Take the example of the bee- It will maintain the larvae, swarm when a predator approaches, and give it's life to ward it off if it must. It never questions. Survival first.?The behavior of the bee was inherited. Colonies that swarm when a predator approaches obviously had a better chance of surviving than those that didn't.
This also explains why if humans were taken out of the picture, why other animals could survive on this planet for many more generations without destroying ecosystems or running out of resources. Through natural selection, when all members of the system are guided by inherited behavior, there will be mutually beneficial traits. The fishes that clean sharks will be protected and fed. But also, on a larger scale, ecosystems will maintain themselves in the same way.
Humans have developed along these lines to the point where genetically, free choice began to yield better survival than operating under strict guidelines. In this way we do not work well with ecosystems, because there are some rules we can break.
1. Do not kill your own species.?2. Do not mate with your siblings?3. Reproduce more in wartime?4. Reproduce in general?5. If the community suffers from overpopulation, sexual orientations can regulate. (this is my own theory on gayness)
There are so many rules that we still have. That we may never evolve out of. Not to say that they are all bad, most rules are good. In most cases we have the free will to make our own rules. I don't think animals have this, especially not the small ones.
There are four types of minds: Darwinian minds are like the ants and bees, in that they are programmed to the very basic skills and have no way of learning new things or making decisions beyond what their inherited traits best dictate. Skinnerian thought allows the life-form to learn new things, but only by trial and error, using chance to find the solution. Popperian minds can learn by trial and error, but it is not just mere chance. They can repeat and test the desired actions in the reality created by the brain.Additionally, Gregorian minds can use tools to expand their possibility of learning outside of what they would normally be capable of. The more tools, the more skills, the more knowledge.

So much of what we do is influenced by what we are, rather than what we should be. To find real answers you need to understand that you are perceiving existence through the eyes and mind of a human.

We are not perfect. If we were we would see infinite depths, we would speak in all the tones of sound, and hear all the tones, see in the dark, and echolocate.

If one thinks that our lives are too short, or that we are too small to have a purpose...
That's perception at work.
Imagine a world where you could see things the way they are.
You are not, by any means, a speck. The model for our eyes is better at spotting the things that are larger than us than the things that are smaller than us. You can see a mountain, but not a microbe. And what is the difference? Sure, there is a lot that we can consider inconceivably larger than ourselves, but you must understand that there is the same sense of incomprehensibly in smaller things. We have the technology to see both, to a point... but we may never know how deep it goes.?The fact is, we are giants. To cheat gravity alone it take billions of cells- cells, the most complex form of matter in the universe.
Insignificant itself, is it's own issue. Now that I've disproved the speck part... The universe cannot think for itself. It cannot appreciate its own beauty. Only minds can think, and as far as minds go, the life that supports knowledge is doomed to be confined to a terribly small space compared to what is out there. It's limited to a planet and the conditions of survival on that planet. But remember, that out of everything that exists, it is the highest, most elaborate, natural state of matter.
Our knowledge is the highest authority we will ever know.
As for life itself, I personally don't like to separate it from the physical world as one might be able to tell. I take pride from the beginning of all things, just not the things I have seen. It has shown that history is a driving force, and I know this to be true, because I have unbelievable pride in it. It took trillions of years, expanding the universe, creating stars, stars exploding and creating planets, and then earth. And then there were millions of years after life was first evolved, that reigned on this planet. All the while our planet mindlessly circles the same sun, on the same path, billions of times. It now becomes apparent how long that is. And all this, eventually lead to us. To right now.
And now we get into time. How long we really live.?Time, like proportion, is influenced by perception. Thought is not instant. It takes time to think, register, and respond. It's all chemical.
In reality, time goes by much slower than this. But it appears to go only as fast as we can perceive it. A machine, if it could think, would see time much more how it really is.
I know this to be true, because of flies. They are less complex, so they think faster than us. If there were a fly in a movie theater, we would see the screen to be playing a continuous stream of color. The fly would see every frame go by, one by one. A picture, blackness, a picture, blackness.
Why do you think they are so fearless? They land on us because to them, we are lethargic creatures. But I like to think that they prefer cows.
Anyway, the point is that the fly can't slow down time, but can witness it closer to how it really is. In reality, the speed of light isn't all that fast, and everything else is slower. We walk in slow motion, our words take ages to form, and time just blows past us.
The speed of light is completely arbitrary; it could be fast, or slow, but we will still think at a speed relative to it so we'll perceive it at the same speed.
A tree can live for hundreds of years staying in once place, yet it can't perceive time. Imagine for a moment that it could, at the speed a tree grows, the rate at which it thinks would be, for a ridiculous example, like the Ents in lord of the rings. Except slower than that. It's entire existence might go by in a flash, with creatures scuttling about it at such speeds this tree might go insane. Watching loggers make fellow trees disappear like blips of time. Nothing would stay still to a tree.
We live, for a very long time. Our lifetime is epic, and I would not want to stay here any longer than the time I have. And I will live it because it's the only thing I will ever experience.
Can you imagine the kind of weight we have riding on our shoulders?

If what we've seen so far, that we previously thought to be the work of god, can be explained without the direct presence of god, why should we still assume he exists?

everything can happen this way without god.

Without existence, there is no time, space, reason, for anything to not exist, so from it comes time, and space. To define space, there must be matter, and to define matter there must also be absence of matter. To define time, there must be movement, and to define movement there must be physics.
From there, it all comes down to in what way the universe can exist. It cannot have a definite beginning, because it needs to be self sufficient. So it must exist in a way that it begins, covers all physical possibility, and then ends in such a way that it repeats again.
Inevitability. Einstein's question was whether or not god had a choice in the creation of the universe.?The answer is no, existence is simply the most important thing. The only role of "God" would surely be to maintain this existence. Life is a product of it, and does have a purpose.
The purpose isn't clear even to me. I think it's to understand, not because we have to, but simply because we will. Everything elaborates, and everything dies. Maybe the expansion of space is timed to let knowledge run it's course, before the white board is wiped clean, just like all physics seem to allow for us to better manipulate the world around us and survive. We may have a role in existence, but I think the best we can do is make AI, which can survive in the universe indefinitely. It will be up to them what to do next.
As long as we are alive, we will find more answers, and become more perfect. Even if we find out that we don't have to know about all this, we will still exist, so we will still try to understand the world we exist in.
There is all this stuff in the universe because the development of life is very improbable. Everything happens for maybe just our one planet. But we shouldn't disconnect ourselves from the rest of the world, we're part of it. The greatest creation of it.
So much has lead to us, and so much lays ahead. Life is the most elaborate form of matter in existence. Of course we have a purpose.

It was a foggy day

and our Plato summary was due the next day, but for some reason Joyner changed her mind. She went to the board, and wrote friday in place of wednesday.

The sun came out in that moment.

There was much hilarity. Then it went away.

Are animals conscious?

How do animals think? I have found the answer.

In the evolution of a mind, first there is the regulation of the systems it controls obviously, and next is basic survival. What this means is the evolution of traits that, by natural selection, help govern the survival behavior of a community in various circumstances. Just as finches will adapt for survival physically, they will also mentally develop rules of survival. I consider these to be unconscious traits, or rather limited consciousness.

In that everything works, but it is very controlled, much like hypnosis. Take the example of the bee- It will maintain the larvae, swarm when a predator approaches, and give it's life to ward it off if it must. It never questions. Survival first.
The behavior of the bee was inherited. Colonies that swarm when a predator approaches obviously had a better chance of surviving than those that didn't.

This also explains why if humans were taken out of the picture, why other animals could survive on this planet for many more generations without destroying ecosystems or running out of resources. Through natural selection, when all members of the system are guided by inherited behavior, there will be mutually beneficial traits. The fishes that clean sharks will be protected and fed. But also, on a larger scale, ecosystems will maintain themselves in the same way.

Humans have developed along these lines to the point where genetically, free choice began to yield better survival than operating under strict guidelines. In this way we do not work well with ecosystems, because there are some rules we can break.

1. Do not kill your own species.
2. Do not mate with your siblings
3. Reproduce more in wartime
4. Reproduce in general
5. If the community suffers from overpopulation, sexual orientations can regulate. (this is my own theory on gayness)

There are so many rules that we still have. That we may never evolve out of. Not to say that they are all bad, most rules are good. In most cases we have the free will to make our own rules. I don't think animals have this, especially not the small ones.

What it means to be human.

Ok, this is something that really needs to be said.

If one thinks that all life is insignificant, that our lives are too short, or that we are too small to have a purpose... There are some concepts that must be known.

Imagine a world where you could see things the way they are. Let's talk about perception-

You are not, by any means, a speck. The model for our eyes is better at spotting the things that are larger than us than the things that are smaller than us. You can see a mountain, but not a microbe. And what is the difference? Sure, there is a lot that we can consider inconceivably larger than ourselves, but you must understand that there is the same sense of incomprehensibly in smaller things. We have the technology to see both, to a point... but we may never know how deep it goes.
The fact is, we are giants. To cheat gravity alone it take billions of cells- cells, the most complex form of matter in the universe.

Insignificant itself, is it's own issue. Now that I've disproved the speck part... The universe cannot think for itself. It cannot appreciate its own beauty. Only minds can think, and as far as minds go, the life that supports knowledge is doomed to be confined to a terribly small space compared to what is out there. It's limited to a planet and the conditions of survival on that planet. But remember, that out of everything that exists, it is the highest, most elaborate, natural state of matter.

Our knowledge is the highest authority we will ever know.

As for life itself, I personally don't like to separate it from the physical world as one might be able to tell. I take pride from the beginning of all things, just not the things I have seen. It has shown that history is a driving force, and I know this to be true, because I have unbelievable pride in it. It took trillions of years, expanding the universe, creating stars, stars exploding and creating planets, and then earth. And then there were millions of years after life was first evolved, that reigned on this planet. All the while our planet mindlessly circles the same sun, on the same path, millions of times. It now becomes apparent how long that is. And all this, eventually lead to us. To right now.

And now we get into time. How long we really live.
Time, like proportion, is influenced by perception. Thought is not instant. It takes time to think, register, and respond. It's all chemical.

In reality, time goes by much slower than this. But it appears to go only as fast as we can perceive it. A machine, if it could think, would see time much more how it really is.

I know this to be true, because of flies. They are less complex, so they think faster than us. If there were a fly in a movie theater, we would see the screen to be playing a continuous stream of color. The fly would see every frame go by, one by one. A picture, blackness, a picture, blackness.

Why do you think they are so fearless? They land on us because to them, we are lethargic creatures. But I like to think that they prefer cows.

Anyway, the point is that the fly can't slow down time, but can witness it closer to how it really is. In reality, the speed of light isn't all that fast, and everything else is slower. We walk in slow motion, our words take ages to form, and time just blows past us.

A tree can live for hundreds of years staying in once place, yet it can't perceive time. Imagine for a moment that it could, at the speed a tree grows, the rate at which it thinks would be, for a ridiculous example, like the Ents in lord of the rings. Except slower than that. It's entire existence might go by in a flash, with creatures scuttling about it at such speeds this tree might go insane. Watching loggers make fellow trees disappear like blips of time. Nothing would stay still to a tree.

We live, for a very long time, my friends. Our lifetime is epic, and I would not want to stay here any longer than the time I have. And I will live it because it's the only thing I will ever experience.

Can you imagine the kind of weight we have riding on our shoulders? Especially since, I like to think, that life is such an improbable occurrence, that the universe must be so incredibly vast- in a desperate attempt to just get at least one situation where it's possible. Perhaps there are suns that vary by a single atom from our own.

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This weeks segment of "If there was a god":
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I was talking to somebody about why god doesn't exist, and the example of "bad things" came up. How can god exist, yet every day a child, a baby, is taken, molested, tortured, and killed by some pervert?

I thought about it, and I don't believe in god but I also don't necessarily agree that this validates his nonexistence.

The real question is why does god have morals? What does he need them for?

Humans are the only ones that need them, and it just so happens that they're the ones that make them and enforce them, not god. If you're religious and you agree that sometimes life isn't fair, you should probably be able to admit that God isn't always fair either.
Morals are a product of *survival* characteristics inherited over a very long time. God is alive. God's survival is assured. If you have any fault in your god then you have to ask the question: Who created god? And if you think God cares when a baby dies, that's sounds like a fault.

He doesn't care. And why doesn't he care? Why doesn't he have morals? He doesn't exist.
It's silly to rationalize decisions that were never made.

The best book ever written.

Choke
By Chuck Palahniuk

This book, gets 10/10 stars. It is, by far, the best story I have ever heard.

Most of it will make you want to write down notes, whether they be just too damned funny to forget, too damn useful, or just plain genius. It will make you wish that you could be so carefree, that nothing in life matters at all, and then the outcome will make you really think. It could change your outlook on life.

I want to memorize it. It's just so damn fantastic.

Productivity illusions

Ever have one of those days where you don't want to work, but someone is watching you like a hawk?

I'm having one of those days every day. So I'm going to devise a solution.
Perhaps I will buy some fake arms to fill my sleeves so I can do whatever I want with the real arms under my desk. (Yes, it is what you think.) :P

In welding, perhaps I will print out some pictures of sparks flying, tape them to the walls, and fasten an LED to the end of my electrode. When approached from behind, I swing my led to the intruder's face, and thinking that it is a real arc, he will avert his gaze lest he be blinded by the rays.

Perhaps I could paint my eyelids like an open eye. Claiming that it's a survival trait in case anyone notices...

Any others?

Suicide Insurance.

There is money to be had in the insurance that everybody wants.

How many deaths are there a year? A lot.
How many of them are suicide? Ehhhh... not so much.

If you wanted to have the option of committing suicide without worrying about your family, you no longer have to make it look accidental. See, there would be a one-year waiting period, but this insurance would cover stupid shit that you really wish were covered. Because you're an idiot, and sometimes you just can't trust yourself.

If you want the assurance that a year from now, you will be protected from negligence, suicide, drug-induced injuries, etc. This is the insurance plan for you!

We can do it, because most people aren't stupid, don't commit suicide, and we don't cover accidental anything.

So if your house burns down, we will not cover it unless it burned down because you decided to give the living room walls a charred-edges makeover, but it went terribly wrong. Everybody will buy this insurance. Lots of people will never use it, or lose their shit naturally or accidentally before they can, which can be covered by regular agencies.

We are offering the other half. Complete. Coverage.
One year waiting period or perhaps lifetime contract. That's how we'll make sure.

When I was young...

Who did I want to be? The changing goals of a goal-less man.

The youngest dream I can remember, in that I had a vision of who I wanted to be when I grew up, was Hulk Hogan. For the life of me, I don't remember where I ended up getting this fascination, but I have dozens of pictures of little me doing a classic hulk hogan stance, and I remember voices asking me to do it repeatedly.

From there, I wanted to be a car designer. Really. I didn't even know how to operate a car's radio, but since my dad restored vintage woodies, I grew a taste for their visual appeal. This dream was so great that, I began taking up art in the hopes that i could eventually model and draw cars in my own design. I collected "Hot wheels", spending hundreds of dollars of my parents money to get each 99 cent car I decided was cool.

I hate cars. Soon we'll have something better.

A little later on I was convinced I would be a comedian when I grew up, and everybody told me so.

To this day, I know that I would never be able to perform in front of people. But perhaps I could put my funniest thoughts in scripts and books. That is what I am currently hoping for. I will have a shitty job, that I can make fun of in various novels, and on the side I will write comedic screenplays and philosophize.

Art? Well... it's a useful talent. It might come in handy for comics if I choose to start some. It's another dream of mine. I'm fairly good at coming up with comic strips.