It seems like thats all I ever do here. Wait for Brian, wait for class, wait for the minutes to slip. Wait until the next time I can do this, do that. Its all just an extended period of waiting. When does my life begin? Where do I draw the line? Hasn't my life been going on for 18 years already?
Given what the waiting will lead to, I dont mind. College degree, a husband and a family. I'm willing to wait for these things. I'm probably more willing than I know, the frustration of waiting usually dominates most other emotions. Brian tells me he'll move out here so we can live together as I finish college. I feel badly when he says that, like I'm denying him his own college eduation. A college education that he thinks he cannot get. He's just as smart as me, if not smarter in some aspects. I don't understand why some things are easier for me. Probably the same reason why he can look at a computer and say more things about it than I could ever hope to do. Different backarounds, different experiences. Its so odd to think genes that are 99.9% the same could make such different people as we see on this earth. How a few tenths of a percentage could code for a monkey instead. Thats why I'm majoring in genetics, the code for biological computers. Technology more advanced than we can even imagine. God gave us the gift of reason, encoded it into our souls, we are beings of fragile minds and infinite potential.
Don't wait for you time, because time will not wait for you.
So stop waiting, and go live.
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I feel badly when he says that, like I'm denying him his own college eduation. A college education that he thinks he cannot get. He's just as smart as me, if not smarter in some aspects. I don't understand why some things are easier for me.
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You're not denying me an education; I am.
You know how to work to get what you want.
Nemo, don't forget I'm right here, willing to help you in any way I can.
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