...So this has to be quick. I just wanted to report that it was that time of the month again, which relieved some stress from brian cause of the happenings of his last visit, but it left me doubled over in pain half the day. With homework, a lab, and studying for a midterm to do. So that was really annoying. But luckily, I have gotten everything done, and I think I'll do alright on the test. Wish me luck.
Hope all you people are having a good week. I'll tell ya about the test tomorrow or some time. :)
I dont know if you can call a dorm home. It feels like home now, just as much as the house where my family lives. Anyway, I know I haven't said anything in a week. So, let us recap briefly.
I cant remember what happened on monday. School, a weird video in psychology.
Tuesday I sat around all day.
Wednesday, three of the four of us in this dorm room slept in and missed our early class. My roomate decided to go home early and didnt go to school at all, but I went and was treated by my chem teacher making things explode in a rain of fire. I spent the rest of wednesday pretty alone since everyone went home for the holidays.
Thursday I left with my aunt and cousins to go to my family's house. We had tacos. Yes, on thanksgiving. This will make sense in a few paragraphs.
Friday involved movies, video games and sitting around. I only get to see my cousins a few times a year so thats always fun.
Saturday, come artificially late thanksgiving! the turkey was in the oven by 8:45 am, and we all got ready for company. So that day we ate, played cards, ate some more, drank wine, ate even more, danced... it was grand. One of the best thanksgivings I've ever had. We had the holiday festivities on saturday so more family could come and so my dad could be there, since he works nights and they made him work thanksgiving.
So its sunday and I'm back in my dorm. I miss Brian. I have two midterms this week. *sigh* so I have alot of studying to do. Better get started, eh?
Yep, it is my 18th birthday. Here's a list of what I did today:
-woke up early
-scrubbed the shower so mom doesnt think my dorm is gross
-got some girly presents from my mom and sister
-went to a really good Itallian restaurant
-beat Halo on Normal (YES! After only a WEEK this time!!!)
-organized my scolarship application for next year
In that order. I think there's a nice variety there. Things I did not accomplish:
-see Brian
But it's okay... I guess... just, I miss him so damn much. Alas, I've complained enough already in previous posts, I won't bore you by complaining some more.
So, I'm 18. Pretty cool, eh? Brian and I are legal now. Hehe. I can do all sorts of adult stuff I wouldnt do anyway, yay. And I'm still not going to do them. Except, if I lived in a state where the drinking age was 18, I'd be full of wine right now. That is the only difference. I like wine. yep.
Anyway, that's all for now. I'm going home for thanksgiving, which is cool, I'm looking forward to that. This is going to be a short week, thank the lord.
I got an A on my psych midterm! Praise me! Whee! This means I might actually get an A in this class, which would be decently awesome. Oh yes.
In other news, I realized something interesting today in regards to chemistry class. The teacher has the knack to make overheads and show them to us and then not give us nearly enough time to write them down, and then he'll assign us problems he doesnt teach us how to answer, and today he even taught us how to answer some problems after the problems were DUE. This got me to thinking, WTF?!?!?! So I sat down and thought, and thought, and realised that this is college now, you cant get everything you need by listening to the teacher and copying the overheads, you actually have to READ THE CHAPTER IN THE BOOK. Now that I have learned this valuable lesson, I think I might start doing better in this class than I am doing currently. (I have a C right now.)
So that is that.
I'm glad I got that one figured out. :D
Yes, that's right folks, 11 glorious months of the best decision in my life. I asked Brian out 11 months ago and it has changed the course of my life completely. And I am so happy I did it.
That is all.
And now I shall set this back so it's actually on the 16th.... and you just just pretend it was always there, okay? I didnt post it late! No, I didnt! :D
Third Eye Blind concert. Saturday. Rox0red. Totally. And. Completely.
Yes.
Brian and I had a great time this whole weekend, pretty much. We usually do, its just so hard saying goodbye. In fact, it takes most of the strength in me to do it. This is just really hard work, this thing called a long distance relationship. We love eachother way too much to stand going weeks without seeing eachother and stay sane. I'm at the verge of tears as I write this, it hurts so much that he's not here and I dont get to see him in weeks. I just gotta push through, live on, talk to him online, etc. Just, nothing beats psysical contact. Even a hug. Especially a hug. When Brian hugs me I feel like I'm safe, like I don't have to be afraid of anything. Like life is the best thing evar. And other such corny things that's probably making half of you sick and the other half jealous. Maybe. I wouldn't know.
Okay. It's late and I have to wake up in 7 hours. Time for bed.
Guess who's sitting behind meeeee! *giggle* Brian! *is happy*
We've been busy and will continue to be busy, so that's all for now.
Oh, and I signed up for classes.... got mostly what I wanted except the creative writing was full... ahh well, I'm gonna try to get on a waiting list.
yep.
No, not Halo 2. Just plain ole Halo. On easy mode. :D:D But daaamn, that game is fun. I'm gonna start trying normal mode soon.
In other news, Brian is coming down on *tomorrow* instead of Saturday, which has me even more happy. Whee! I'm also signing up for classes tomorrow, which has me a little nervous because there are very few spots left for the classes I want, and I'm on one of the LAST groups signing up..... ugh. It sucks, because I took so many AP tests that I'm technically a sophmore because of the units they count for. Which means I should have signed up days ago. >:|
I'm gonna go drown my sorrows in halo. Or studying for my psychology midterm. One of the two.
The X-box won't start up. And she already had halo (and didnt know it) but it's a Chinese version... that would lead to some difficulty. so that had me a little pissed till i remembered brian had given me a copy. So I've been palying through a bit, its super fun, and extremely distracting. Tomorrow, I have a calculus midterm and a chem lab due. The lab isn't that bad, I'm almost done, but the midterm looks confusing. It makes that halo cd laying on my desk look that much more appealing. I will not give in, I will not give in. I have more important things to do. Yes.
In other news, Brian is coming over on Saturday, which has me all superhappy, and we're going to a Third Eye Blind concert to top it all off. hells yes, I sez.
Alright, I have to go memorise derivative shortcuts.
:-\
...for the first time in seven weeks or so. Wow, it is so nice. We went shopping, and my mom bought me a bunch of stuff, we had a huge spaghetti dinner. I love my mom's cooking. Its only after you move out that you realize everything you had living at home. Of course, I don't fully realize it yet myself... I have no job and just go to school and my parents and the state are paying for it. Though having to buy my own food and books and get to class on time and all that kind of independent stuff has given me a good sense of what its like to be on your own.
We also watched Shrek 2, which was just as annoying as the first one and only a tad funnier/cuter. And my sister won't let me take the nintendo 64 back to my dorm, damnit! Half those games are mine and I'm the only one that *ever* played it, why shouldn't I get it? Heh, because I should be doing work, not playing games. I know. In fact, I should be looking at my lab right now. Heh. Like I'm going to look at a chem lab in the middle of this mini-vacation? :D that's why I'm going to have problems in the future, I know. I know.
Anyway. I don't need the nintendo, my room mate is bringing her x-box if her mom lets her and I'm getting her halo. Then all will be good. :)
Mmmmm... video games. What did you computer nerds do to me?!?!?!?! :P
Eh, gotta love 'em. I know I do.
Finished the grand majority of my chem homework yay!
Well, I'm feeling much better than I did tuesday. And wednesday morning. Wednesday evening I was standing out at the bus stop in the dark and in the rain and the sound of the rain just washed the fear and doubt off of me and I've been feeling grand ever since.
I went to the last ILB axon today. I answered the phone for the first time. That was cool. I later gave my first powerpoint presentation, on the fate of life in the universe. That went great, to my relief.
Oh, the lab I couldnt figure out? Took me long enough. I turned it in this morning, rather taking the 10% late-deduction than turning it in half completed.
Well that's all for now. I'm going to miss ILB, my tuesdays will never be the same! :) Hope you guys are having a good week.
College didnt seem that bad... until everything decided to happen on the same day, and I just couldnt handle it. Well same few days. Because of an error in judgement, my lab partner and I forgot to write down some inportant numbers. We couldnt get them until last night. And then we decided to watch the election coverage. And then I found out I don't know how to use Excell all too well. It wasn't long after until it was midnight, I had to erase half the work I did cause it was wrong, and I couldnt get myself to stop crying.
There are more factors than this of course, I tend to be mood-swingish at times, especially artound certain times of the month and everything caught me at the critical moment. Depression isn't fun when one has alot of work to do and its after midnight and one has class at 9 am the next day.
I just don't understand how we're supposed to conjure these equations out of our asses and know how to use them. Its that kind of stuff that leaves me sitting at my dest feeling completely worthless. Find the standard deviation of the data using the best line. And I'm supposed to know how to do this? And exactly what equation to use? Well guess what, I don't.
And I'll be flunking this class very soon if I can't figure it out.
If you're saying to yourself, "well, standard deviation is the sum of the blah blah" well thats not what we're supposed to be using. It's actually some fucked up equation involving errors, and I didn't even know it existed, and I cant remember what it is now, and I think my Roommate (and lab partner) is starting to get tired of me asking for help. And frankly, I wouldn't blame her. I ask her for help every five minutes when I'm doing work.
And they told me I was gifted.
I jus't dont know what to believe anymore.
...and I have three weeks until I'm 18. It's a little dissapointing but I dont mind. I've enjoyed sitting back and watching everyone debate and go crazy. I think Kerry will win. But honestly, since I don't get to vote, I didn't do much research into anything political past reading topics on ASW and listening to Brian babble. Which is fine with me. I'm not the political type.
Anyway, I should really be doing a chem lab. Maybe more later.
At least, thats how it appears right now. I finally have the results of my three midterms: 89/100 for calculus, 75/105 for honors chem, 42/50 for psychology. I am very happy with these grades... with the teacher's rounding of points theyre about B's... but them darn college professors dont give straight answers for grades until its the end of the quarter--- dude. okay I gotta tell you guys what just happened.
so I was sitting here and a girl knocks on the door and asks if we have one of the Resident Advisor's vacuums.(in this dorm complex theres a limited number of supplies like that for us to use) I say, a bit loudly so I knew they'd hear me, "No?" and then there was silence, and she said, "okay..." and then mumbled "what a bitch" as she left. I went out there, she was asking another dorm room if they had it and I explained to her comrades that I wanted to make sure she heard me, but they seem to agree I said "no" rather rudely. I left before the main girl could return because I didn't want to see her face and I didnt want her to see mine.
So right now I feel like shit. People dont think about other people's feelings when they say stuff like that. And I don't disclude myself from the generic group "people". I've done it too and I hate it.
My suitemate just said something wise to me. If I meant to say "no" in a bitchy way, I should be proud of it. And if I didnt (which I truly and honestly didnt) theres nothing I can do about it and it's that girl's fault she percieved it wrong, and it really doesnt matter. Makes alot of sense if you think about it.
Anyway.
I really like college life so far. Been here five weeks now, already seen my parents three times... but my mom's like that. I really don't mind them visiting me, the company's nice. Of course they surprise-visited me two weekends ago when I had planned the day to be full of doing homework... but it's okay. I love my family. I'm going home for thanksgiving and I cant wait, I miss my mom's cooking so much. (she's 100% Italian btw, thems good food.) Heehee.
Well I'm going to attempt to do homework now. Wish me luck.
'Nuff said.
- nemo
Edit: Awesome. Really awesome. Thanks for helping me, dude.
Now never post on this without telling me again. :D
And in case anyone was wondering, it wasnt working cause I wasnt setting to have the program "publish" the entries. it was on the "draft" setting. Forgive my ignorance.
So now I KNOW, which means I wont make that mistake again.
Hopefully.
~me