...now it's Marathon. Only suiting that the former came after the latter, eh?
Beat the first Marathon today. On easy. Cause I'm a piece of crap wanna be gamer female. :) So I immediately started Marathon: Durandal. Which could be not good, cause after playing about 15 or so levels of any video game one's brain starts to melt, and sure enough... my head don't feel too good.
One thing I can say though, is that there's nothing better than vacation time. Well, maybe.
Hope everyone out there is having a lovely winter holiday.
Whee!!!!!!!
This has been a lovely christmas, full of gifts for everyone and happiness. My family loves what I got them, which makes me quite happy. And I'm starting to like my hair cut again, which also makes me happy. I'm eating a HUGE hershey's kiss right now. damn, its making me nauseous theres so much chocolate. I should stop eating it now.... but its... so good... the chocolate calls to me.... its calls....
Riiiight. Anyway, everything is going good, except for the fact that I miss Brian dearly. I've been keeping myself busy doing some terragen which is always fun, and other such things.
Now, onward to watch Seinfeld on DVD with my folks. :D
and I think it looked cute. bangs, a few inches cut off the back, layers that start at my chin, its really quite adorable. I just thought I'd try something different, thats all. I havent had a hair style remotely like this since I was little.... and i havent cut my hair in one and a half years... Well, my mom and sister love it to death. My dad wishes I had gotten it cut short like I had it two years ago.
I was really happy with it... I just thought it made me look a little cutesie...
now I can't wait for it to grow out.
Well I'm at the 'rents house. Brian just left to go home an hour ago... I got to spend the whooole weekend with him, which was seriously great. One of the best weekends I've ever had, really. We went to my choir concert on friday which was awesome, I got to sing on stage again for the first time in 6 months, and boy did it feel good. So then I spent the night at Brian's house on Friday, and then he drove me down here on saturday. We had tons of fun decorating the house with christmas stuff, eating great food, snuggling, playing games, etc etc. It was totally great. I love christmas, and I love my brian, and being here is great because that means I have no school to worry about, and yeah. So right now I'm going to go work on some games I'm testing. And possibly going shopping. :)
'nuff said. I love you, Brian. And I always will.
(For those not in the wise, which would be surprising, especially given I mentioned it in my last entry, it's our one year anniversary... one year ago I made the best decision in my life. Thank you, god.)
I have my first college final in three hours!!!! Gah! what am I doing here?!?!? I have to study!!!!
Hehe, actually I'm not too worried about it. Its for psych, and the only reason I'm taking it is cause I want to try to get an A in the class. I need like a 90 or so on this test, which I can do, ive gotten two 84's and a 90 on the other tests.... wish me lucks everybody.
More important in terms of finals though, are my other two. Chem is tomorrow, which I'm worried about alot less than I should be because we're allowed a note-card. Of course this means he's going to make the problems twice as hard.... but somehow I think i'll be okay if i have the note-card... not too wise, I know. I'll be making that card tonight and tomorrow morning, methinks. Now thursday, which happens to be Brian and my *1-year Anniversary*, is my calc final, which I may or may not do good on. depends. I'll let you guys know how I fare as the grades come in.
In other news, I am an idiot. I'm not going to explain to those who dont already know. Just rest assured that my idiocy is present and quite annoying and almost cost me a dear friend.
In other other news, I sent out christmas cards yesterday! Praise me, for I am acting almost like an adult.
In further news, I <3 teh nemo. :D
Edit, Dec 17th, 12:40am: Psych: I did crappily. Okay though, I'll still get a B+ in the class.
Chem: I.. don't want to talk about it.... please let me still pass the class...
Calc: Buh? why was this test hard? wtf? Well, I'm pretty sure I'll still get a b in the class....
*rolls her eyes and tries to ignore it*
I should be doing my chemistry lab but I am not. Finals next week. I'm first on the waiting list for Creative writing next quarter. Ive been talking on irc ALOT. I dont have alot of food left, cause I'm too lazy to get some. I have accomplished next to nothing this week. I miss brian.
That is all.
Its a lonely Thursday morning... oh shit I should really get my laundry... brb.
There. Now where was I? Lonely Thursday morning. I want to play halo, but I have things that are higher on the priority list, and I'm not ready to get my ass whooped on heroic. Because I sukc. One thing I've noticed about myself is that it takes a whole lot to get me to finish something I've started. Usually, the only things I finish are schoolwork and projects that are *very* important to me. Usually, I am inspired to do something, start doing it, lose interest and stop, among dissapointment.
Like this post. I intended to go on a while about important things. But I have either lost interst, or dont know what I was going to say in the first place, and thus dont know how to continue.
How about this. I was inspired to do this because for some absurd reason the calendar for Brian's blog tends to be that of another person's blog, usually a guy named Viper. So I've read through his posts a bit. He ends every post with "I love you" which I find very cool. I was just about to become analytical but I havent really read through his posts thoroughly so I can't really say anything. Anyway, his blog looks a bit like how I wanted this to look. In terms of how he analyses stuff. I need to do that more, thats what I was planning to do with this thing, not talk about how I got a B on both my calc and chem tests, and how I dont think I did so good on my psych test..... finals are next week too.... see, there I go, talking about things that no one will possibly want to read. Who wants to read about the daily happenings of someone's life? I know sometimes, depending on the situation the person is in, it might actually be interesting. I dont find that aspect of my life interesting.
So I dont want to talk about it anymore.
Things I do want to talk about: the evolution of the mind, the dynamics of a relationship, the meaning of life. Those kinds of things are fun. And I think you might find them worth your time. And best of all, I can use convoluted topics and relate them to my life, so everything can be connected.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING.
er, sorry, I just got frustrated at myself. Someone in my head thinks I'm a bloody idiot.
I think I'll shut up now. Maybe more later.
I love everything right now. EVERYTHING!!!!
I even love you!!!!
*so insanely happy omg*
Alright. The chem test friday afternoon seemed to go quite good, I felt confident about how I did and all that. Upon arriving back home I was a little annoyed to find that Brian had just left then instead of two hours prior. Not his fault though. So I decided to help my suitemates rearrange their furniture a bit, till about the time I thought Brian would be here. So I went outside to wait for him. After an hour I knew something wasn't quite right... but luckily he got here just 10 minutes or so after that, with news that the traffic had been horrible. Alright, alright. He really needs a cellphone. So after that he told me that he'd have to leave early. I got upset, which makes sense yet shouldnt have happened, and that set the mood for the entire visit. We still had a lovely time, doing fun things and such, but when it came time for him to leave yesterday, it was quite difficult. The only thing thats making it easier this time is that in two weeks we're going to have an awesome weekend. Which is good. Especially because its only two weeks from now. This visit, which had been after three weeks of not seeing him, was strained because threee weeks is almost too long, until I find a different and more effective way to cope. A little after brian got home he called me and we stayed on the phone for several hours, which was really nice. I spent most of the time curled up with my blanket, the phone resting on my head and my eyes closed, listening to him try to fix his wireless modem or playing halo 2 and pretending he was just a few feeet from me. It's easier for me to imagine that when I'm on the phone than when I'm talking to him online, because I can actually hear his voice, instead of just reading his words.
Anyway, I'm happy to say that I scored a little above the average on the test, which is good, but still pathetic cause the average was an amasing 65%. but that's college for you. So right now I have a long empty day in front of me, I hope to start reading the DaVinci code or at least go to the gym. The latter is doubtful, especially if it's cold outside. Cause then I wont even want to go out there at all, even to go right to the gym. Of course, I need to go outside to the Dining room to eat... meh.
Hope you guys had and continue to have a good weekend.
The calc test went okay. I'm looking at a solid B, which is alright with me.
I spent all day studying for Chemistry. I mean, a good 7+ hours. Or something. I dont even know, man, I was too busy trying to study among being totally thrilled that Brian is coming over tomorrow. Right after the test.
So thats what's going on, wish me luck on the test please, i'm going to need it. Gases and quantum mechanics. Yeesh.
I'll catch you guys after the weekend or so, I guarantee I'll be decently busy till then. ;)
