My front page looks too empty because I went a week without posting!
I must fill it with stuff!
Yes!
Here I am!
filling it!
with
stuff.
WHAT STUFF I FILL IT WITH INDEED
you know, I should go to bed.
yes.
*goes*
So... busy... yet.. why was I browsing the BnB????
I've been very preoccupied with various things like homework and studying and visits from family and brian and such. This has been my first evening without too much to do in a while. Hrm. I've been talking to Brian a lot through voice chat, and it's been pretty cool. I dont feel as lonesome. He came over this weekend, which was good fun--we stayed up till two talking about our families. :D
Well i'm going to try to get ahead on schoolwork, that is always a good thing. You all have a good weekend! <3
So much work I should do! Still two whole days to do it all in. I went to the gym today. I've been going every few days, it is *GREAT FUN* and if you dont go to the gym, gooooooooo cause you feel so good afterwards. YES.
Back to chem.
Have a good weekend, y'all.
The sun cometh quickly over mountain top and across the sea!
Hear me now, over the roar of the wind that carries thee!
Cast thine light upon me,
Shallow water warmed from your touch,
Carry us all to that land beyond the sea.
Oh the love and yay! Oh glory and beauty. I love Brian, and I love love. And I love the truffles and 14 red roses he gave me, and I love the drawing I made for him, and I love the weekend we had, and the happiness I feel.
<3, everyone, <3.
...on my way to class, I realised something about the way I think and percieve my world. Let me explain...
So it was 7:35, and the bus usually gets there by 7:38, so my roomate and I rushed outside to catch it. we ran down the stairs, out through the lounge, out the door, down the street and a bus went by but it was the other one, then my bus came and I got in line with everyone else and got on the bus and sat down and the bus drove away and rounded the street corner and stopped at the stoplight and drove on, and when rounding the next corner to pull onto camus I suddenly realised where I was, and it felt like only a SECOND had gone by since I had been sitting here, at my computer, at 7:35. It was 7:40. 5 minutes had slipped by with me hardly realising, without consulting my memory for what had actually happened. Why? I spent that whole time living in the present. I tend to do that, and when I remember the past and future, the present seems to become irrelevant, in terms of the flow of time. There is no sense of time in the present. It just is, and nothing else. No 5 minutes before noon, no day after yesterday, or day before tomorrow, it just *is*. This might be why I have a very funky sense of time.
Last night I took a nap, setting my alarm for 5:40 pm. It went off and I opened my eyes, confused as to why my roomate's clock said 5:40 and my alarm was going off, because I never have to get up that *early*. yes, I thought it was 5:40 am. my clock said pm, but it's fucked up on time before, and I thought that was what had happened. So I set the clock to am, and when I was figuring when I had to really get up, I suddenly realised that wednesday evening had never happened. I had no memory of it. Considering this information, I remembered that it *was* wednesday evening, and I had taken a nap. Very odd feeling, believe me, to have your mind warped backward in time like that. I had truly believed it was thursday morning. The mind works odd like that, I guess. It was dark enough to be 5:40 am. My roomate was asleep in her bed. It had seemed sensible, until the past caught up with me.
I would keep talking, but I have a horrible calculus midterm tomorrow morning, and must study. I hope everyone has a good weekend, Brian's coming over, so you probably wont hear from me. >:)
and here I am, sitting at my computer. It's really all I ever do. My short story is just about ready to be turned in, and it's due tuesay, so that's good. I am extremely tired. But this week has been marginally hectic. I went insane yesterday, listening to a couple hours of music and tripping out, and I didnt get any homework done. But that happens sometimes, and it's almost a cleansing thing for me, now that's all out of my system so I can focus on all the work I have to do for next week. Yep. My sister turns 15 tomorrow. Makes me realize how old I am. :D
Eh, cant think of anything else to say. To all you people who've been commenting lately, thank you very much, that makes me feel all happy and stuff. <3
...mother, for giving me the wake up early very easily genes! Regularly before my alarm even, and thats when it's set for 7 am! THANKYOU. It's nice not having to struggle to get up all the time.
...that is all.