There are number of goals I would like to reach which can basically be summarized as a more highly directed, organized life. I am by no means bereft of organization or direction, but when it comes to things that I ultimately really would rather be doing and should be doing, I tend to fall short, to myself, of a satisfactory level.
Foxpro decompiler warezInstead of doing the things I want to be doing, I tend to sink back into habits. Mainly, I spend too much time on the Internet, and too much time watching TV. I actually do not spend that much time doing either, but with school and work, my time is limited. My use of the Internet is a way for me to procrastinate, in many ways.
Several weeks ago I summoned some motivation I never knew before. I am not quite sure how I gained it or how I lost it. I think it was a simple matter of keeping focus and awareness, something that has slipped slightly for me lately.
I have never been good at keeping plans for specific action. I think that motivation I had before had arisen from keeping a certain state of mind. I rather miss that.
Excess seems to break the continuity of life and unbalance things. I have, lately, been spending more time on the Internet than before, being drawn into old feelings and thoughts, in some respects. I will, at the very least, have to make a conscious effort to limit my time on the 'net, perhaps drastically, until I can attain a more limited/disinterested approach.
Posted by Lobster at October 27, 2004 01:42 AM