And that just goes to show how busy I've been, I suppose. Several things I gotta say, though...my apologies about the site not being updated yet, the laptop with the files is still at my mom's work. If I don't get it back by about this weekend, I'll just redo it from scratch. Not fun, but I'm getting sick of waiting.
The horse really isn't as cool as I thought it would be...after all, it did relieve itself all over the floor. Twice. How annoying is that? Its also small for a horse. But its still a horse!
Track/official football workouts started monday. Those will be owning me about 3-5:30 every day from now till the end of school. Just a heads up. :D
The play will be taking most of my free time over the next few weeks. I might be free on friday nights, though, and possibly saturday. If you're that desparate for my company somewhere, talk to me.
The Passion is an undescribably movie...if you can handle some intense and realistic gore, go see it. I'm serious.
I seriously don't know what to think about my car...its been at the dealership for two days now. And all that happened was the sunroof got stuck open. In theory, I'll get it back tomorrow night. *crosses fingers* It is rather humbling to have to beg for rides again. Muchos thanks to those who have provided them. :D
As for my own life...its really great at the moment. And yeah, I can say that with a totally straight face. For the first time since football, I'm busy again, and getting a good workout. Seems to improve my disposition a fair bit. On the personal/social front, I've delt with my demons and cast them behind me. Love can cure a lot, especially when you finally let go of doubt and embrace it. And yeah, I'm being vague again. Sorry. If you've been reading this for any length of time, you've probably realized this is more for me than for you. I merely make it avaiblible for your purusal so that you may gain some tiny bit of wisdom from my experiences, or something like that. Yeah, I am a sellout. :D
Mr. Allen made a point today in class that rang home rather loudly. To truely gain anything, you have to let go and trust completely. It is the doubt in our lives that causes us the most pain. You have to accept life, try to change it where you can and where it needs it, but at the same time trust that things will work out. Especially, I have found you must trust those around you. Trying to doubt people and prepare for the worst is not only draining but also makes you pessimistic as hell. Not a good way to live. I'm sure someone out there is wondering how on earth I could be seen as a pessimist, the answer is really quite simple. In the absence of concrete proof, I beleive that the worst probably case will happen. Then I am pleased with the little things, like an assignment being delayed or a practice being easier than expected. The little things we so often overlook are really the most important. It is truely shocking to realize how deeply we can effect someone with a look, a word, a touch. Smile at someone and greet them and you might just make their day. You never know when you'll provide that little push to change someones day radically. Make sure you push in the right direction.
I think stress is a danger to many of us right now. I, at least, have become slightly more edgy and jumpy. Last night, I found myself longing to just smack someone upside the head because they wouldn't shut up about things that were annoying the hell out of me. I mean, once someone is my friend, I can enjoy practically any conversation with them, even if they are just going over their shopping list or something with me. However, when I don't know them (and even worse, when they come across as a self-centered idiot) and the situation is one in which I do not desire that sort of conversation (back stage at a rehersal, perhaps?) I get a bit more irked. When they proceed to then talk nonstop for long, long periods of time and come borderline close to harassing/insulting a friend of mine, I might snap. Heh. I still think it would be hilarious if I actually started wacking someone with a smelly gardening glove.
I think I am also slightly spoiled these days. There is a group of people who know me pretty dang well and I tend to enjoy being able to comminicate through shared experiences or, as with those very close to me, a single look. Much easier than taking the time to explain the full depth of my thoughts and the anecedotes that relate to them/cause them. Forgive me if I seem reluctant to explain my sudden burst of laughter, the odds are it would be close to impossible anyways.
Unlike most nights, tonight's song du jour has no meaning attached to its selection...it just managed to get stuck in my head today and therefor warrents mention.
F.N.T - Semisonic
Posted by Viper37 at February 24, 2004 11:12 PM