at random moments, I find this song playing. Whether my computer randomly selects, my sister starts playing it, or I just forget which cd I have in the player, it keeps coming on. Some sorta sign, maybe?
One more week, then I'm off to Cali. Amazingly, all the stress is gone. Completely. I'm not worried anymore...I still care a great deal about a great many things, but there's no stress attached. What will happen will happen, its outta my hands (or that's what I tell myself, anyways). Relaxing is good for the soul. Its a rather drastic change from a weekish ago, when I felt like I couldn't deal anymore...get too many different things pushing on you, and you can start to bend so far it feels like you'll break. Letting go seems to be the best cure, and one I embrace whole heartedly.
With Cali, though, I'm more excited to get away than to be going somewhere. Minor difference, but an important one. I honestally need to get away from everything for a little while, no offence to anyone. :D I just need a break; I'm weary from trying to deal and cope with stuff all the time. And this cycle of insomnia and extreme sleep is wearing on me, too. I can go one way or the other, but switching between them sucks.
Poll question du jour: Can you date someone without ever meeting them face to face? Why/why not? All opinions welcome, I'm genuinely curious on the issue.
"It seems things always fall apart..." This is a trend throughout emo, punk, and even some rock. The singer laments how "good things can't last forever" and sow on. I wonder if this is true. I've had one hell of a good thing going for nigh on 3 years now. I would rather hope I won't lose it, or even any parts of it, but in some ways I already have. Var football, for example. An injury combine with a large pool of talented players kept me off it this year, though i did come back to start JV at the end of the year. Likewise, I've been forced to more or less drop band. Several friends will be leaving at the end of this year; I truely doubt I will see many of them again. A few friendships are currently rather strained and I see no viable way to fix them in the short term. More and more, my parents seem to worry about me...grades dropping from an A to a B+ apparently shows signs of overwork and a need to cut back on extracurriculars and time with friends, at least in their views. Its finally time to start looking at colleges, again reminding me that in two years, everything I know will be taken away. These are the things that have been troubling me of late that I now feel no stress from. :D Still, they're there in the back of my mind. They'll pass with time, I suppose...I have far too much going on to attempt to deal with these things that serve as mere annoyances.
Those more pressing things include Track, of which my first meet is this wednesday; football, which starts in 6ish months; school work that I must have done by the end of the week; and my own sanity, which is perhaps the most important of all. (forgive the abuse of the semicolon, it seems ot look nicer that way).
And despite all this, life is great. Go figure. ^ ^
Oh, the part I forgot to mention...I have to rip a ton of video again. I might put some art up before break, but that's it. Everything else will wait until I have a solid six hours with a net capable computer, either in cali or when I get back. Sorry, life before pleasure, or something like that.
Despite all that's happened, or because of it, a part of me still wishes I could go back to summer...only two more terms to go, but so much has changed...
Sunday Drive - The Early November
Posted by Viper37 at March 14, 2004 08:32 PM