Yesterday, I spent my last few bucks for the month watching The Day After Tomorrow with some amigos. The film would qualify as a literary success in no one's book, but it was still great as what it was: a disaster movie. And almost all the special effects were awesome (those wolves looked kinda fake, but they were still better than other's I've seen). Then, after running scotty and alex home and having some conversations on aim, I watched the Godfather. Great, great, great film. Directed by Sophia Copola's dad, as I discovered, and it qualifies as the best mobsteresque movie I've ever seen. Hell, it probably invented the genre.
You would think I could learn from the past. Everytime I allow myself to get trapped in a valley and think things are bad, I turn out to be wrong and everything is back to great within a day or so. Lesson to be learned here: when shit happens, don't immediately react. Wait it out and be certain before you do anything.
I still plan on focusing on football a ton this year. As I type this, my arms are still in pain from overlifting on thursday. That's prolly gonna continue three times a week all summer; I need to do something to get my stength back up where it should be.
There are a few other things I would like to address in this today aswell. One is human nature. Everyone, it seems, is governed by a set of rules or tendancies that control how and when they respond to things. Sure, they are sometimes (perhaps always, with enough effort?) capable of overcoming these tendancies, but they either fail to do so or choose not to. These range from the small and subconcious, pulling your hand back when you touch something hot, to the large and seemingly controled, like how you react to someone when you are angry with them. However, regardless of how controlable these responces appear, they're predictablity categorizes them as being outside simple control. And as much as I may hate these tendancies sometimes, changing them would fundementally change the person they belong to. If you operate off the base assumption that the person with the tendencies (a friend, family member, or even yourself) is good to begin with, or that you like them for who they are, you cannot possibly attempt to change them. (the exception being, of course, yourself...only you can attempt to change yourself.) I've come to the conclusion that these tendencies must be tolerated and avoided when possible. Know that I will not hate you for them, but will hold you accountable for your actions nevertheless. I hope you will do the same for me.
And, on a different note, I would like to ramble about hope and joy. Hope seems to be the emotion that sustains us, "where there's life, there's hope" and all that. So long as we have hope in something, we can keep going. Once we lose hope, we are almost certain of failure. Joy seems to come from hope fulfilled, whether it is a hope we admit or know we have or not. Joy can also come from contemplating hope fulfilled. Basically, it's good to dream and try to fulfill those dreams.
Music:
"At Least We're Dreaming" - Eve 6
"Friend of Mine" - Eve 6
That song by the rembrants...track 5 or something...
The "Italian Music" from The Godfather
"Goodnight" - Evanescence