Lately, I've found myself just dying to rip someone a new asshole. Not literally. But verbally. I keep goading and goading, hoping someone will explode and let me vent all the frustration that's been building up in me for the past few months. Today's choice target was a girl presenting in my religion class. I knew she was worthy of my attentions because she's a flaming liberal and likes to argue. Sadly for me, today wasn't such a day...apparently giving a presentation changes her so she won't try and defend her views. Either that, or she was so full of bs that she couldn't. Luckily for her Mr. Allen laid the smack down and more or less told me to shut up and stop asking questions. That, and she was the one in front of the class who could decide when to move on. And she had mishka on her side. Curses.
But I've been doing that to a lot of people lately. If they say something stupid, I call them on it and won't let it go. I'll twist otherwise innocent things into pathetic, obviously wrong opinions in an effort to anger other people. Cause then maybe I won't feel so...tense. I wanna explode at someone. I miss the mock trial last year. I got to cross-examine four witnesses. I did a bit of research into what they were going to say and gave them a copy of general paths of inquiry I intended to take. They, naively, assumed those were the only things on which I would ask questions. When they gave testimony, I jotted a few quick notes on errors in their arguements. Then I easily handed them their asses by pointing these errors out and getting them flustered and scared. According to their comments afterwards, I was a terrifying and evil person. I was given the honor of co-best lawyer, however. That I didn't deserve, because all of the opening and closing statements were simply perfection.
But still...football's a great way to get some of this out. Nothing like knocking a starter on their face and giving jonny a huge hug to make you feel great...especially when the coach chews the starter out for sucking. Despite that, it can't compare to a pure verbal defeat, a destruction of mind caused purely by the sound waves produced by my mouth. I love knowing what buttons to push to anger someone. I should note that I've only done this with people who annoy me through stupidity, arrogance, or pure lack of tact...all things that I exhibit frequently.
And to think, they all consider me a "nice guy". :D
Maybe once football's over I'll have time to get into a great argument with someone. Debate or PA club should be good for that.
Its funny, isn't it, that someone who feels so strongly about protecting those he loves takes such pleasure from pissing off people who annoy him?
Maybe once I get be around that which makes me sane more I'll be more sane. I hope so. I wanna be perfect more.
I love you more than I can ever say...thank you for all you've done for me and all you continue to do.
Posted by Viper37 at November 23, 2004 07:42 PM