An uninteresting day, I suppose. Slept, read, went to tech, watched eternal sunshine and elephant. Did not work on the history paper I was supposed to do.
I think a good friend is upset with me. Its hard to tell, as several friends have been acting strangely lately. Sadly...I'm not sure I care at this point. Some people have had problems accepting some of my recent choices and the "changes" they think they see in me. Ironically, these changes have barely effected anyone directly.
I was reminded today of one of these changes, though. No longer can I easily sit alone in a crowded room. I now grow lonesome and my thoughts go to one not present. Strangely, if I'm with my family or just by myself, I'm ok, but if I'm with "friends" who are not actively engaging me in some way, my brain goes elsewhere. Distract me or I'll find a way to distract myself from your lack of distraction.
Some things feel so natural. Pity I still wake up wondering where I am and why I'm there by myself. Someday, that'll all change.
And I can hardly wait...until I feel the sun and your lips both pressing on my skin. And that thrill in my heart that starts inside your eyes.
Domo arigato.
I love you!