Best way to describe how I feel. I just slept an hour and a half later than I should have (straight through my cell phone alarm, which somehow got wedged under the couch I was sleeping on instead of on top of it where it would wake me) and I'm still feeling the lack of sleep. I haven't gotten enough any night since...two weeks ago saturday, probably, and am definately missing it. Ah well.
What else has occured...I learned desperation is not attractive. Ok, so I didn't learn that, I just saw it confirmed again. People tend to try and avoid people who are desparate, making said people more desparate, leading to a downward spiral. Life's hard, isn't it?
I still have no idea how to deal with friends who can't talk together. Its kinda interesting to pay attention to who talks to who...and to what they say.
Oh, sorry for all the "rachel jokes" last night rach, I was tired and really messed up on caffine and you were an easy target cause you were kinda sleeping. AND you never answered your phone when I called, so there. :P
I've also had confirmed within myself that I really get irritated quickly with people who attempt to take things from me, particularly when they're exploiting the fact that they know I won't oppose them on it, or that politeness or manners would dictate I not oppose them. Sure, I have two cookies and you have none but we're not commies here; just because you're hungery and have no food doesn't mean I'm not starving and took positive steps (like BUYING COOKIES) to aquire food. Just a warning, though...as with the cookies, I don't mind being a jackass or a rude punk to keep things I've rightfully aquired. Perhaps passivity in the past has lead to this point where you assume I can be expoited. And your indignant anger when I refuse to confrom to your demands is merely another attempt to get my stuff, not some righteous and justified feeling that makes you superior.
(Sorry, I do have somewhat of an axe to grind here...seems too many people last week tried to take advantage of me to get things from me...though the odds of me talking about you, my faithful reader is quite low. I think the person who bugs me the most with this doesn't read here. Luckily.)
Anyhow, I've now wasted 5 minutes when I should be gettin' to tech. I hope to see you all at Ian's tonight...
I love you!
Posted by Viper37 at February 12, 2005 10:04 AM