It seems silly to go back and forth on blogs instead of talking about problems.
But maybe talking doesn't do anything?
The original entry is below and in keeping with tradition I won't delete it -- even though I don't feel it should be posted.
I love you.
Perhaps I did call, but either your phone was off or I wasn't getting service, cause I never got a ring.
Perhaps I assumed you'd decided you wanted to sleep longer and turned the phone off.
Perhaps then, my phone's battery was almost dead, so I plugged it in.
Perhaps I went to go work on EG and study for my test at 8 am.
Perhaps I then got back and called you again, and was quite happy to get through.
Perhaps when you said you just woke up I assumed you'd meant to sleep that long and felt better about my decision not to call your room phone.
Perhaps I didn't realize I was being used as an alarm, and didn't take further steps to get ahold of you because you didn't say I was an alarm -- you said you'd be awake by the time I called, or "be done napping then".
Perhaps, had I known I was an alarm clock, I woulda called the room phone and kept trying the cell phone until I got through.
Or, perhaps I'm completely untrustworthy and don't follow through on what I say I'll do.
Just seems like there's two sides to everything.
And yeah, I my memory does suck. I really wish it didn't.
Would you rather I didn't ask questions at all?
I think I feel as bad as you do when I'm told I've forgotten something.
I love you.
Don't really know what to say. Wonderful that I find out how you're feeling later on. Wonderful that you don't tell me when I ask. Wonderful that, once again, I'm convicted without ever showing "my side". Maybe you don't have the full story?
Oh well.
"My side" is always meaningless "excuses" anyways.
My laptop's HD spontaniously failed last weekend. It actually failed earlier, but I kept hoping I'd be able to save it, or at least my data. Its pretty much all gone now, I'll find how how much I had backed up online and at home come summer. This means I'll rarely be online for quite a while.
2.5 more weeks of classes (counting this week), then study days for half a week, then a week of finals, then home. Can't wait, I really can't.
I don't really know what to say...I feel so close to being overwhelmed, and so close to being ok...*sigh*
I love you.
Spring break rocked, Karolyn's spring break rocked (she spent it here...most fun I've had at ND, truthfully), and now I leave tomorrow for nationals in Iowa, where they've recently experienced an epidemic of mumps, one especially focused on local college campuses. Yeah, that should make life interesting.
I should note that I managed to screw up the software on my pretty laptop, probably by moving things around that I shouldn't have been. I'll be online rarely if at all until after easter, when I'm planning on sitting down and getting everything backed up to another harddrive and then reinstalling the OS fresh. I'd hoped to put that off till summer...but I kinda need the laptop here, so I'll just have to do it quicker than I'd like.
I'm missing you lots, beautiful.
I love you!!!