So, I found out yesterday that my (somewhat estranged) ex-stepdad is dying of sclerosis of the liver. Today, I went and saw him at the nursing home that he's at right now.
He's in rough, rough shape. He can barely talk, and was breathing very slowly, heavily assisted. I was only there about 10 to 15 minutes; I didn't know what to say, and when I did try to make small talk, he could barely speak. The fact that he was tired and kept slipping in and out of consciousness didn't make conversation any easier, either. Eventually he made note of the fact that he was so damn tired and I told him I was going to leave to let him sleep. I'm going to go see him again on Saturday; with any luck, he'll be dead by then. I feel sorry for him, and he must be in fairly intense pain. The only thing I can wish for him now is a quick, painless death.
In other news, the Forums are almost ready to come back; the only thing remaining on them is for me to upgrade phpBB. Oddly enough, I don't feel like doing that right now. Go figure.
Posted by Eric at February 9, 2005 07:46 PMWoah..that really sucks..
Anyway, I can understand why the forums seem fairly unimportant to you right now..
Posted by: GFono at February 12, 2005 12:08 PMI really am sorry that he (meaning your ex-stepdad) has to go this way - and I don't want to sound indifferent by saying this - but honestly Eric (first-name basis 'cause we cool like that) you don't sound too upset about it. I hope that everyone involved makes it through alright.
And... about the forums: yep. Rockk.
Posted by: Josh at February 12, 2005 05:59 PMI'm not too terribly upset about it because: (1) it's his own damn fault, (2) I haven't really talked to him in the few years since he and mom got divorced, and (3) I'm usually able to handle stuff like this pretty well. I came really close to crying when I got back in my car Wednesday after seeing him, but I got a phone call that snapped me out of it. Haven't come close to it since.
I'm also able to come to terms with it by acknowledging the fact that he's done a lot of good in the world. He has done dozens of shows (probably close to 50), and has brought a lot of joy into people's lives; sure, it isn't some global-scale thing, but it's more than a lot of people do with their lives by the time they die.
Posted by: EVula at February 13, 2005 06:03 PM