Yes, yes, it's been, what, two months?
mobilemb v3.0 crackIn any case, I've been working on about ten projects in total over the past couple months, and a few essays. But I'll skip all that crap and get to the exciting stuff- Christmas.
For Christmas, I got:
-New bass (Geddy Lee Fender Jazz Bass!! ^_^)
-Bass tuner
-Gig bag
-The final three .hack//SIGN DVD's in the series (LIEK OMG! I love the last episode)
-Shogun - 5 DVD tv miniseries (been reading the book)
-Nausicaä volume 1
-Baldur's Gate: Dark Alliance
-Rayman Arena (hey, it's actually pretty fun)
-Keb' Mo', live in NYC
-Candy (naturally)
-Cat stuff
-Wolfenstein 3D for GBA
-New bass strings
And that's about it.
My Global History teacher (very cool) will be eating dinner at my house on the 8th (if all bodes well with schedules, in any case). A friend of ours from China is also visiting and will be eating dinner at our house on Wednesday.
Anyway, I'm going to use this blog for the more traditional purpose - I'm going to start ranting. If you don't want to read my whining, feel free not to click "Continue reading Christmas and Things".
This will mostly be a guys and siblings rant, and I guess I'll start it off with this:
Why are guys so stupid?
How come guys think that talking about their problems means taking it out on people, thinking that they'll automatically understand? Why does it seem like when other people try to talk about their problems they either laugh and make fun of it or just shrug and change the subject?
The only guy - who's of an age less than 30 and who I know in real life - that I feel that I can go to with a problem is my youngest-older brother. Every other guy becomes uncomfortable - but for what reason?
I imagine they don't know how to react, and I guess this is because a lot of guys don't realize that when you have a problem, or when you're really stressed out, or anything that you've been bottling up, you need to talk about it. Is there some ego thing that blocks this from happening? Or do they just think they don't need to talk (although that in itself involves ego)?
I've seen obvious evidence of what happens to guys when they don't talk about things, no matter how much they're unaware of it or how much they try to hide it.
Are guys uncomfortable with expressing themselves? Do they feel like they have to be machotough for every other guy out there? Do they feel like they have to fit the tough stereotype of guys? Are their egos overwhelmingly large and fragile? (It's very common that I hear a guy give himself a little boost, as if to say, "Yeah, I'm that good," if they don't say that directly in the first place. Naturally, this is mostly not undeserving, although it's obvious that they're trying to boost their own ego.)
This is apparent with even guys who are not in the popular group, and far from it.
So I'm guessing this is what causes the seemingly apathetic responses to any problem someone else will pose to them. Either that, or they just don't plain care or figure that it's unimportant - which leaves one to the conclusion that they're insensitive, myopic people who would rather you solved your problems by yourself and stop pestering them.
And why are they so oblivious? Whenever I'm emotionally upset by a guy, the only people who realize that are everyone else EXCEPT whichever guy upset me, and if he does realize that he wouldn't understand what it was that upset me or why it did. This has happened to me with plenty of guys before, and recently with one of my brothers.
Also, whenever they feel "shown up" they feel the need to "defend" themselves - popular ways of doing so are correcting every single little thing you say that's wrong, or "showing" you "up" back through some way or form (occasionally involving beating you in a video game, beating you in a physical test, or beating you through academics). In turn I become defensive myself, irritated at their bristling because they were "shown up". I don't enjoy being used to prove that I am inferior so someone else can make themselves feel superior, no matter how unware they are of doing it.
No, guys, don't deny it - I know that at least 90% of the guys who will read this will have done this at least once. The last 10% involves those few rare guys that haven't, which means I either don't know them or they're at least ten years older than me, or both (my youngest-older brother I mentioned before doesn't read my blog).
And yes, there are girls who show similar symptoms, although with girls it tends to be more subtle and less painfully obvious (of course, not in all cases).
On people in general, how come people ignore what you say, then blame you for either not saying it louder or not dancing around in a pink frilly tutu doing the Can Can when they were the ones not paying attention in the first place? Sure, you could have done both of those things - but why should they need to have been done? Obviously what you were saying wasn't important enough in the first place to be listened to, so why should people ask you to say it again or to say it louder?
Yes, I'm a brat who wants attention - shoot me. Well, not so much attention as I wish people MY AGE would listen to me for once! It just gets annoying when you try to tell people something, they don't listen, you do what you were talking about, and then they act all surprised and scold you like you were some idiot child whose attention span ran out. Yes, you could say it louder, but obviously nothing you said was that important anyway. The only people who actually listen to me anymore, or think anything I say is valid enough to listen to, are my teachers and my family.
It's becoming more and more apparent that people think I'm an idiot - well, maybe I am, but at least tell me that instead of snapping at everything I say and giving me those, "you're so stupd I don't know why I even talk to you" looks - and yes, far more than one person does this, whether they're aware of it or not - and yes, most of them are my friends.